Heartbreak did more than end Dr. Gordon’s relationship. It changed the way he loves.
The Ebonies actor, whose real name is Jonathan Edward Suubi, admits he no longer allows himself to fall deeply in love because past relationships left him questioning every emotion.
Even when someone catches his attention, doubt quickly takes over.
I am now a mafia in love because I was heartbroken so many times. Even when I like a girl, I start thinking she already has many men on social media and others paying her bills. I still ask her to love me, but I do not easily trust my feelings.
Those fears are a far cry from the young man he once was.
Raised in church, Dr. Gordon says he believed dating was wrong while he was still in school. He laughed as he recalled reporting classmates who sneaked into relationships, convinced he was doing the right thing.
Then love found him.
His romance with actress Evelyn Namulondo lasted about a year and a half, but the breakup hit him harder than he ever imagined.
For nearly three months, Dr. Gordon cried as he struggled to accept that the relationship had ended.
Today, the memory makes him smile.
Looking back, I ask myself what I was doing crying for someone I now see as a sister.
Prayer and music slowly helped him rebuild his life, but they could not restore the fearless romantic he once was.
These days, he says logic always wins.
I feel sorry for the girls I date now because they are victims. These days I use my brain instead of my heart. Whenever genuine emotions come, I run away because I see falling in love as madness and stupidity.
His confession has resonated with many fans, especially those who say heartbreak taught them to guard their own hearts.